wind beneath my wings

Dear Nene,

I love you so much that I want to cry when
I think that I will not be able to help you in preparing for your
wedding...

That was mom. I did not attempt to finish the rest of the letter. It was deeply affecting. Tears welled from my eyes the moment I started reading her first lines. She has always been like that. She always had nice words to tell me in her letters. For the past 21 years that we are on the opposite side of the world, she never fails to write me letters or send me cards. She knows what shoe size she needs to send me for my first communion or seniors prom. She never forgets the milestones in my life. Probably because she's my mother and there's this thin, invisible line connecting our hearts.

I will be preparing for my wedding without her and I'll surely miss her - our catfights and all. But I know that everything will be temporary because as I walk down the aisle - she will be waiting in the middle.

I love you, mom. I always end my letter with this, remember?.. and I'll end this tribute again with the same familiar line: You are the wind beneath my wings.

My Love. My Sublime.

Arthuz,

Just wanted to take this brief lull as a chance to let you know how I've been feeling these past few days. I got to thinking while I was looking at our photos saved in my folder and the ones posted in my friendster and in webshots.

First off, let's get one thing clear. I love you. This may not have been the first time I ever uttered these words but in my whole time, and after so many traumatic events that have happened to me, I've always been cautious and wary of saying that phrase. And I've said it only when I felt it with certainty and conviction. I do. More, each day.

I thank God for you. For having walked into my life at such a perfect time. I truly believed that you are God's gift to me. If I never met you, there would have always been the promise of you. You are my star. You are my home.

In the years that we've already shared, I can honestly say that you are the true love of my life. My One Great Love. The one I've so been looking for all my life.

Please grant me the time and patience to show you what a great life and love is ahead of us. It may not be the smoothest road, but I will make sure that it will be a worthwhile ride with me.

I love you and I will respect and honor you. I love you so much, Be and I can't imagine hurting you. Thank you for opening my eyes and teaching me the value of forgiveness. If only for that, I have learned to shrug off the rancor in my heart towards the people who have hurt me most.

I can't wait to start life with you. I can imagine living a placid life, you and me watching the trees grow, the leaves swaying with the wind. I can picture myself rearing our children, feeding them and driving them to school each day. The sunday barbecue that we have agreed on. I can imagine us fighting once in a while over little things that can be helped, not speaking to each other until I cry my eyes red and you take me in your arms and we make amends by sweet kisses and warm hugs.

I love you, my sublime. I know you love me because I can see it in your eyes.

Thank you so much for making this happen. Belated Happy Valentines Day and Advanced Happy 1 Year and 6 Months!!!

Always,

Your Beatrice

February 19, 2004

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one of my most recent letters. eversince the wedding preparations has begun, i have not found time to really sit back and make another love letter for him.. time has been quite elusive these past few weeks. i just can't seem to get enough of it.. ~farah

our wedding website

Finally, I was able to create a simple wedding website.. I'll be posting the link here until I find the time to master the art of HTML-ing.. :)

http://wedding13.weddingchannel.com/pwp/gui/pwpbride.asp

Happy Sunday!!

six months..

On March 11, 2005, I shall be married to my soul mate. My groom shall meet me at the end of the altar, beaming with joy as I walk down the aisle as radiant and as graceful as I can.

I always thought that we are meant for each other. I always believed that at the end of it all, we shall be at each other’s arms. We are soul mates.

I could vividly remember how casual the proposal was. It was a lazy Sunday afternoon in January at the Dela Rosa dining table. I was sitting right next to him, his mother across us. “Neng”, his mom calls me.. “January 8 will be perfect for you guys to get married. One year of preparations will be enough for you guys to have the wedding of your dreams. Will your mom agree with me on the date?” January was too early a time to get married!! We were planning of a December 2005 wedding after all. By that time, we were thinking, our piggy bank would be filled with the 5 and 10 peso coins we have been saving up. And our joint account will be fatter. Both of us were caught off-guard. We were taken aback. But as soon as we regained our senses, we looked at each other and smiled. That smiled meant everything. It changed our lives in a second..

Both of us are excited about the whole thing that it became a part of our daily lives. Everyday, we would update each other of new ideas that we can incorporate in the wedding. Our own wedding. He leaves all decision-making to me. He has but one request. That we be married in his favorite church. Christ the King Parish in Greenmeadows.

It was time to tell mom. Arthuz made a call on her birthday, January 6th. He thought that it would be the perfect time to break the news. It turned out, he doesn't have to exert an affort in breaking the news to mom. She wanted us to get married!!! :)). But she made this tiny request of moving our wedding date from January to March. No problem. Anything for my superwoman, we told her. Then, all's set for the wedding preps..

I never thought that the preparations would parch me dry and drive me nuts!! I originally set up this blog to record my wedding preparations, but then again, I doubt that I will be working on my wedding preps alone. With the way things are going, it seems that I’m more into sharing my love story than record my “done” and “to do list”. Oh well, I still have 6 months to go..

I shall be married to the love of my life. He shall bring me to the altar to celebrate the triumph of the human spirit over the seemingly unending odds. I shall march in the aisle with the splendor of beautiful flowers and lovely songs to proclaim, my gorgeous husband waiting for me at the end of the line.

Exactly 6 months from today, I will be Mrs. Arthuz Dela Rosa.

current song: "I need no soft lights to enchant me If you'll only grant me the right To hold you ever so tight And to feel in the night the nearness of you" (The Nearness of You ~Norah Jones)

things you need to know about farah

(thanks superfriend.. without you, my blogging life will be super boring!!)

Fill in the blanks...
1. i'm: sick!! i'm down with the flu.. thanks to my hubby :(
2. i live in: Cainta with my hubby and his family
3. i love: Arthuz -->my big baby boar, books, shopping, shoes and bags, strawberry ice cream, reggae, journals, now--driving!!, travelling and purple sunsets..
4. people: amaze me!!
5. life: is beautiful. period. it can get fucked up at times but at the end of the day, you begin to marvel at it's beauty and splendor.
6. i wanna see: my children grow up and spread their wings
7. i play: hide and seek with my hubby on weekends
8. it's now: 5:34 AM in the office and I'll be going home in less than 2 hours! Yeepeee!!! I just can't wait to see my hubby and hug him and kiss him (with the sipon and all!!)
9. i'm wearing: a white blouse and khaki knee-length skirt
10. my phone: is a samsung V200 (harharhar!!)
11. i'm worrying about: my wedding. 6 months to go and i still have to accomplish a lot. it can get to someone's nerves at times talaga. mad bride na itoh!!
12. i wanna go: to the states and be with mom. i wanna travel with my hubby. i wanna go to europe and singapore and thailand and china..
13. britney spears: is fucking sexxxy! :))
14. good charlotte: is a punk-pop band that Xtine does not care about much. Geez, I don't even know these guys!!
15. weather: what about the weather???!!
16. my shoes are: my life!! i love collecting them. i wanna own a shoe factory someday.. kung si xtine, gusto malunod sa go nuts donuts.. ako naman sa shoeses!! :))
17. i drive: better now. we realized i had to. no choice. :((
18. i smoke: not!
19. my country: is hopeless.. and it makes me real sad.
20. my parents are: happy to see me grow up this way.
21. school is: exciting!! i wanna go back as well..
22. other sites: ???
23. i'm going: to the mananahi to have my gown made, meet up with my bestfriend janet on monday, watch the notebook with her, start calling suppliers for my wedding.. TO ORDER PIZZA AND POPCORN AND SODA AND BEER on sunday while we watch the UAAP Cheerdancing Competition on my in-laws' wide wide wide TV!! (darn, no more tickets!!)
24. i think this post is: a waste of time but im enjoying it anyways..
25. i just ate: lemonade and cheese curls (i can get weirdo at times!)

:: p e o p l e a r o u n d m e ::
my mom is: my superman!!
my sister/s is/are: non existent
my brother/s is/are: my wall. my protector. he is also my male version.
my crush is: hero!! oh, and JOHN ESTRADA too!! :))
my grandma is: an expert in making callos.
my grandpa is: still strong at 89.
my teachers are: old (hahaha!)

:: s t u f f t h a t i h a v e ::
my wallet is: a black MFG tri-fold given to me by hubby last year. we carry the same wallets. his was given by shine and carlos. i'm still aiming for that pink RL wallet though..
my camera is: my phone. i also have an olympus camera and soon, we'll be buying a digicam, an ixus or the same camera as shine's.
my mobile phone is: samsung v200 nga!! :))
my books are: a lot! when i moved in to Arthuz's place, i had 8 big boxes in tow, 3 of which contains the books i have collected all these years.. from sheldon to sparks to neruda..
my accessories are: a mixture of real jewellery, the funky beads my friend cheng sells in the office and the beads i got from bora and galera plus a few given by friends from their travels abroad
my sunglasses are: the nice ones they have at fossil. i so love sunglasses. they look good on me. i like them audrey hepburn style :)
my towel is: aplenty. i collect towels.. all sizes, all colors..
my teddies are: are we talking bears here? i have a lot but i so love one teddy i received from hubby on my 25th birthday. ANDIE. he is as big as i am!!
my clock is: a violet round wall clock i got from SM for 109 bucks!!

current song: Hold on now, baby. This could be the last time we stand. This could be the last time that we say good-bye. The picture shatters. I can't find the words to save it. Tell me what to do, how can I make it right. We will always be fire and ice.

a loaded september

September is upon us once again. The heat of summer, the typhoons of the wet soon have gracefully took a bow to give way to cooler months and happier days.. Join me as I witness the unfolding of many wonderful events..

This month is Arthuz's birth month. As early as 2 days ago, I have been very busy organizing a superb birthday bash for him. Afterall, this will be the last time he will celebrating it as a bachelor. I can imagine all his friends present.. from his highschool barkada in Marist to his Lit friends in UST to our reggae friends down to his basketball teammates and the people at Amber. It will be a blast!! I'm planning to have a Ranger's Night on his birthday. Everyone should come in hats and plaids and boots. There's going to be barbecue and hotdogs and marshmallows. And beer. Lots of it. It will be so much fun. He will love me much much more for this. Harharhar!!

We have a lot planned this month. I have posted our schedule at the corkboard mounted behind our bedroom door. Here goes:

4 (saturday) - Roadrunners' Teambuilding and Farewell Party

5 (sunday) - Wedding Expo at the NBC Tent @ 2pm [imporant!!]

Spa @ Brickroad Fitness Center @ 5pm

Weekly Family Dinner

TXU Basketball Victory Party @ Pongkee's

11 (saturday) - Opening of Inter Call Center Basketball Tournament

12 (sunday) - Nestle NonStop Cheerdancing Competition [Push on UP!!]

25 (saturday) - Lai's Wedding @ Paco Park 5pm

26 (sunday) - ARTHUZ'S 26th BIRTHDAY!!!

See what I mean? For the rest of the days this month, we will be uber busy. Not to mention that in between all these brouhaha, we are starting to work on the smaller details of the wedding. The church is set. The reception venue has been settled. The list of the entourage have been sent to mom in the states. The first draft of the invites will be sent to me late November. And so with the samples of our give aways. My gown? My gown!! Shoot, my gown!! I have yet to speak to the person who's going to do it. I have been putting it off for the longest time. I want to see my friend's gown first before I set up a meeting with her. I would have to say that planning the smaller and less important details entails a lot of patience, imagination and creativity. Hay. This is starting to parch me dry. And I'm starting to become a mad bride. Bad. :<

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