Just got home. What was supposed to be a 2-hour merienda date lasted for almost 5 hours. There were just too many stories to share and too many memories to reminisce. Hay naku.
Finally, I was able to find out what the disease of the child is. The medical terms are just so complicated I had to ask over and over again. And because of the uniqueness and complexity of the disease, I promised myself not to mention it on my blog. Honestly, just knowing what the baby is going through right now really breaks my heart into small pieces. I can not imagine a child so fragile undergoing so many different tests in the first month of his life! In his first 2 weeks, he has undergone blood transfusion, MRI and a lot of tubes are being inserted in his very frail body. And to top it all, he underwent a major operation on his 15th day on earth. He had to be sedated and the risks of not waking up was very high. There was even one instance when a ventilator had to be inserted to him just to aid his breathing. For almost a month now, this has been his life and he has held on. And he is holding on. And what made me cry so hard was when my friend told me that just this afternoon, when she first held and carried her son, he was clinging to her so tight and looking at her eyes as if telling her: Mama. I'll be fine.
We were laughing about stories of people we met in college and crying the next. We were laughing and crying and laughing and crying as if we were 2 crazy individuals who had nothing to do. Inside I felt that my heart was breaking into pieces but I had to show her that everythings gonna be alright. I had to be strong so that she could draw a little strength from me. I could feel the pain in her eyes but her strength and grace is amazing I don't understand how she does it.
You're right, Prims. Everything happens for a reason. We may not understand it now but we will know it in time.
Meanwhile, just continue holding on because Clayton needs you and Nong. And yes, sagot ko cotton candy, ice cream sorbetero and cake sa 1st birthday nya!
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
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repeat repeat repeat hahah! i said:
Whatever she and nong is undergoing, I know them as a strong couple and that they will surpass this trial. And if for any consolation, my ex-colleagues who have kids with congenital diseases always hang on to this:
that parents with this kind of children,are actually chosen parents of God as God has handpicked them very carefully to take care of these fragile and special children.
regards to them, okay tell them titan and I send our regards, close baga iyan tsaka si titan.
mwahness bats, may sasabihon ako saimo sa chat na lang.
luv yah!
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